I’m a long ways from home
For awhile I always thought
I wouldn’t know what that would feel like
Being at home is the world’s most comfortable trap
You’re cozy and everything feels in place
You remember where you fell & broke your heart
Getting lost in a pretty face
Continue reading “That Town Called, Home.”
A few years ago, every time I would walk into a convenient store and be rung out or be served at a restaurant I’d notice that the people working that job were much older and I’d ask myself “Why are these 40 year old men and women working a job that has zero fulfillment?’ Up until I was about 20, I was under that impression that your dreams are everything you needed and as long as you desired something more than anything else, It would just turn out okay. I was naive enough to believe that at 16 and it was a beautiful thing. Continue reading “Convenience Store.”
All the adults around me
Constantly existing in my life
They talk and have grand conversations
Using sophisticated words and phrases
Each sentence as predictable and judgmental
As the next
Just like their lives
Perfectly planned and executed
Like all the rest
I call It.
The talking suits and ties
Pledge to live by it
Step 1. Cry, cry and cry some more
Step 2. There are no steps
Feel the seemingly impossible moment and pause the world around you. Room upside down. Your head pounding. Your life in the worst crash of its entirety. Or so it seems. And attempt to swallow that huge lump in your throat and let it drop down to your heart. Look around everywhere you go and enjoy being reminded of them at every sight you see.
Look in the mirror. Hate everything that’s looking back. Clench your fist and shatter your now depressing. Self loathing world. The shards fray off into your now thin skin. The sudden rushes of pain don’t phase you. You felt a different level of pain, the day they walked away.
Take a flame and place it onto those Polaroids hung so cliché on those string lights. Instantly regret it the second you can’t go back.
Continue reading “Strategies for when your heart is broken. (ice cream weather)”