Maybe the grass isn’t greener on the other side. Who knows. But, maybe it’s purple. My favorite color. People leave jobs. People leave crazy atmospheres for steady air to breathe. People leave other people. Even ones they told they were never going anywhere. Mostly because, wherever they’re going or whoever they’re seeing and whatever it is they’re doing, are void of the flaws normally dealt with on a day to day basis.
Chivalry isn’t dead. We just don’t love like we used to. More and more people everyday are deciding to settle for comfortability and not what their heart is actually telling them. Either because, It’s too hard or sounds, feels and is quite crazy. But isn’t that the point? To have your heart and feelings in a state where It’s never been before? There’s too many people loving out of fear and routine, not admitting mistakes and growing pains. We aren’t opening doors and making a random day special anymore, all the hallmark holidays do that for us now.
I hate listening to the same drowned out voices saying there’s no point in temporary things and feelings. Constantly being told growing up, to not put time and effort into anything that wasn’t going to last for awhile. Always be on time for everything. Avoid the non guaranteed aspects of life. I think that’s bullshit. I full heatedly believe in chasing temporary and investing your heart into right now.
They always tell you that the first one is the hardest one.That’s the one that’ll hurt the most. It will leave the largest scar that you have to struggle to fix for an unseen amount of time. I’ve lived and loved and felt enough over the years to completely disagree with that theory. Falling in love with someone or whatever it is that has captured your heart, for the first time is a refreshing breath of air you’ve never felt before. With love, you learn that losing your breath is scary but in the most amazing way. It teaches you that when your heart skips a beat or two, to not panic and to just smile and let your heart slow dance for a moment. After the dance. After the fresh air. Comes that immediate drop to hell and uncertainty that is impossible to explain to someone who hasn’t felt it.
There’s a handful of memories that are placed in your life that are filled with friends that you haven’t seen or even cared to ask about in years. I think It’s pretty crazy how that all ends up. You hear talk all the time about how best friends you have today aren’t even acquaintances tomorrow. I honestly think It’s impossible to wrap your head around until it just happens. It’s kinda similar to how day to day, your life doesn’t feel differently and then 5 years flies by and your whole world has changed.
In elementary school during an art class, the teacher gave us each a piece of paper with a traced outline of a paw print. (Our school mascot was a Polar Bear.) Our task was to make a new picture using that outline. Most kids made a baseball glove or something that makes sense. When it was my turn to show off what I made to our teacher, I handed her back the same empty outline and said “ I made a paw print.”
Name tags are something that I’ve always resented wearing. I understand the principle of them and what their purpose is, It makes sense I guess. It’s always the jobs that are corporate run and by the book that enforce wearing them so heavily. I’ve always been attracted to the hole in the wall type of establishments because of how original they are sometimes. I live right outside of Seattle, Washington. There’s this 24 hour tiny restaurant called, Beth’s. It’s nestled right next to a dive bar and across the street from a 7-11 uni mart.